mama used to always tell me I was just so special
all these flaws so pure means i'm just ugly in the flesh so
i feel like i'm dying, but i only grow resentful
kinda felt life meaningful, but now i feel regretful
papa used to tell me i was handsome and a star
but now i've got no friends, no lover and no fucking heart
i just feel so bitter and a piece of little shit so,
like my happiness is always in a state of limbo

fucking dummy, please come find me in different depression naps
you could conform or get worn out
heart broken, i am so torn now
and hopeless, i am so bored out my mind
like sarah, she's gone now
still feel the high like i'm getting on board now
plain bitches storm out

speak volumes on this, raise the volume on this
rage comma sadness, bliss
i mean, how could i forget? (x2)

the future conjures suspense
the futile, the nonsense repent
losers, surrounded by them
i feel swept by this nuisance, what do i do if
suicide thoughts lodge into this?
like my brain has a virus like a shitty computer
shift to some new shit
sit with this, groove to it
i spit shit while drooling wit,
resilience, truthfulness
i would lose my shit if i knew you did
the shit i could never prove you this
now my minds filled with doubt
nevermind, i've announced my drug binge is in full effect
downward spiral

dare to elaborate
on a platter, i had the fate
that grew matter and after days
i grew madder
cause i'm married to the game, let's gather
words like sticks for the fire
slather concern woven on some shit
no piss like strong bladders
the flaws of human campaigns
so even if you floss
boozing with champagne
you still find ways to complain
outrageous, raising standards
how great the aim is what grants us our constraints from fulfillment
i still get flashbacks to depression
it oppresses my feelings

the sweet disappointment of seeing the girl you worked up the courage to
walk with another guy, enjoying her time
freeze in the moment
revert to the void that i'm zoned in
all i wanna do is fantasize
I, I

mama used to always tell me I was just so special
all these flaws so pure means i'm just ugly in the flesh so
i feel like i'm dying, but i only grow resentful
kinda felt life meaningful, but now i feel regretful
papa used to tell me i was handsome and a star
but now i've got no friends, no lover and no fucking heart
i just feel so bitter and a piece of little shit so,
like my happiness is always in a state of limbo

i feel like days are metaphor for humans
lightness and darkness
it starts off bright, but as time progress
it harvest less energy for plants to grow
relationships come and go and lovers become disowned
channel my emotions without a remote

I could say i'm enjoying the ride, but all these years ate me alive
now, i could say i'm enjoying this ride, but all these years ate me alive (x4)

tell that bitch i don't need her no more
thought it was love, it was just pretty face
just a pity, fake titys in my face, in the city
great getting wasted, fade
so it's safe to say
i just need pussy and i'll be on my way
all these songs will play
i'll lead on and praise
all for the love of the money and the game
fucking funny, hazardous like rude druggies in dune buggies
the whole worlds against me, so who loves me?
your girl sends me nudes occasionally, but truthfully she's too slutty
fuck it, i'll still fuck her
i'm too rugged, i'm too in love with the feeling
2 pills deep, feeling freaky with a cool rhythm
fool bitches like floozys with lucys influencing their children
fill them in on new eras
take care of my mind state and switch up